thoughts on how i basically uprooted my life...

i have been thinking a lot lately about how i ended up in michigan. so far from all of my family and friends that i love so dearly. its expensive to travel and visits will always be minimal. my job is worked from home, and never takes me out of state. a lot of the time i feel stuck in michigan...especially in the winter. with winter around the corner, this is the season each year that makes me homesick. my sister just had her baby yesterday, and sweet little avery marie is my first neice/nephew, who i cant even go see and hold at the hospital like everyone else in my family is getting to do. a little over two years ago after we got engaged and i made to basically pack my bags and move to michigan right away, i was excited and ready for a new chapter and change in my life. it was a hard decision to make because that meant that my mom and sister would most likely be left out of the majority of my wedding planning, and since my sister was also engaged, i would be left out of hers. i prayed about it SO much and decided that it would be best to make the move, because it would benefit kenny and i more if i were living in michigan and to have our wedding here because this is where we would be living.

now don't get me wrong; i am not unhappy. i absolutely love my life here in michigan. it was a struggle when i first moved here to find a job that would provide for more than enough to just pay my bills. its been hard for an introvert like me to make friends all over again. and even though i didn't feel as though it would be hard to be this far away from family, it has been hard. but you know what? God has really provided. after two years, i have gained a couple of good legit friends who encourage me and would drop anything to help me if i ever needed them. i have a job that i really do enjoy, and coworkers that are pleasant to work with. we live comfortably in a house that we have been able to slowly update since moving into last year. and i have a husband who is smart, a hard worker, and who provides for us. i have such a great and loving "in-law" family who have treated me as family from the beginning.  i have been able to visit with my family and my family has been able to come visit me. i could go on and on counting my blessings from the over the last to years. and as tough as moving has ended up being for me, as much as i miss out on things and the convenience of seeing my family, and as much as i have have told myself that its not okay to share my sadness in being away: i have realized that its normal to feel this way. why wouldn't i be sad? it has all been heavy on my heart the last week or so, but i was reminded today in Philippians 4 that God will provide for all of my needs. friends, that is not just physical but also emotional needs. and it is so important to remember that this is on His terms and how he wants to do it. its easy to always say that "God is in control" and "God has a plan for you", but it is sometimes hard to remember to continually be seeking Him, and building on my relationship with him.if i was given the choice to move again, to uproot, i would do it all over, because this my life now isn't just about me and what i want anymore, its about both kenny and i, and what is best for both of us combined. i so very much wish that i was there to visit with my new niece, but my time will come, and i will meet her soon! until then, i will just keep asking for more pictures and skype sessions! thanks for sticking around today :)

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